A Month Searching.

I have been back in Oregon a month now. 1 MONTH! Time sure does fly.
The time back has been good to reconnect, get situated and start looking for a new job. I don't need an amazing job at this point, just one to bass the time for the year. This is going to be the year to make it or break it. A year of new life and new ideas. I need to find out where my life is going to take me after last year.

2008 made me stronger, confident, realizing that I can do anything that I set my heart too.
It had its ups and downs, but it is how you get out of these situations that makes us stronger.
This is going to be the year of change.... for me...

Mom and I had lunch with a dear friend today. It was fantastic to take time away from the computer and spend a day laughing with girls. We have some ideas about our future and hopefully we can make it all come together one day. I am thinking positive thoughts every day.

Today I leave with my favorite saying..

dance.
as though no one is watching you,
love.
as though you have never been hurt before,
sing.
as though no one can hear you,
live.
as though heaven is on earth.

- souza

Work Out Week 2.16.09

I was supposed to post on Sunday with my workout schedule but that didn't work out due to a very busy weekend. Mom and I had to business to take care of so we were researching and running around all weekend. It was a fun one and the sun actually came out a couple of times. Spring is in the air!!

2.16.09

Ran 5 miles on the treadmill

2.17.09

Spin Class - 55 min class

2.18.09

Ran 4 miles on treadmill

2.19.09

rest day

2.20.09

Ran 4 miles on the treadmill

2.21.09

rest day

2.22.09

Ran 3.5 miles on treadmill 

Upper body weights

*Hope to get more classes and weights in next week.

Running, Running, Running

I had a slow start to my workout this week. The beginning of the week started out slow and not much exercise but then I kicked it into high gear starting Wednesday.

Wednesday:

Ran 4 miles on treadmill

200 sit ups

100 push ups

lunges

Thursday:

Ran 5 miles

Friday:

4 miles on high intensity elliptical

30 min weights

Saturday:

3 miles on treadmill

30 min weights (upper body)

*Julia joined

Shamrock run is coming up in March and it is time to up the miles. It has been hard with the cold weather this winter, but I hope to be kicking it into high gear. Treadmill running has never been my cup of tea, I def prefer a good outdoors run by the water or a hike. Looking forward to many more workouts. 

The Weekend

What do weekends mean? Sleeping in, chores, being lazy, reading a good book, drinking, staying up late, being near the one you love all day & then going through withdrawals when Monday comes around. These are days that we love and cherish. But lately mine have been anything but this. I am trying to readjust to the move and my life back in Portland. I miss so much about California and my short life down there. I really don't want to move back, I love Oregon...I love my life here. But why isn't it clicking and shorting itself out. 

Things are just off. I am still getting my clothes back into the small closet, my toothbrush and soap on the right shelf and my mind back into "interview" stage. I am trying. Trying to do things differently or look at things differently. Conversations are always the same and arguments stem from almost all of them. I don't want to argue or feel alone. Life is too short and I know that there are always roadblocks and stresses. I just have to find the strength to get over it. 

Relationships and love are so beautiful. They require compromise and listening. Listening instead of talking. Understanding when things are bad you still love the relationship and will do anything for it. I just want to feel like I am not the only one trying to change and make this work. 

Searching Away

I am back in Portland and searching away for a new job. I don't need a dream job right now, just something that will get me by and meet new people. I know that Darren & I are so ready to take the next steps in our relationship. We are ready to put stresses behind us and more forward. I can't wait to start this new life with the man I adore so much. He has been there for me every step of the way and this had made us closer and stronger. 

List for 2009:

* Get married

* New apt/ new home

* Build up savings

* Vacation

* San Diego marathon

* ATL trip in April

* New Glasses

I have been doing some consistent running and exercising and have to keep my weight down. I did extremely well being in California and creating my active lifestyle. Portland is tough with the weather and getting sick. I have had this horrible cold and have not been running as much. I did go for a 5 mile run on Tuesday, but I think this delayed my recovery. Wednesday wasn't a good day. I did go to the Employment Trends for an interview this morning. I hope that they send me a job to get me going next week. Can't get behind on the bills..

The New Year

2009 is going to be the year of change!

A year to get to know yourself and realize that your dreams are possible.

The road might be challenging and touch at times. But it will all make sense one day and I am ready to take that path.

...I am ready for the next chapter.